lovelyannie

so today was actually an awful day, yet pretty awesome one  too.



On thw way to Jenna's condo this morning, I parked to come in to get ready for our beach trip and some douche bag backed into my (PARKED) car and then left. One person claimed to see teh electriciam do it in his truck. He then came later came back and didnt even say he was sorry. There was no remorse for waht he had done. Its basically totalled. The radiator is busted and the whole fender is pushed in..... Im sure theres a few other htings wrong that I am unaware of. YET another reason to dislike people who drive F 150's!!!! cmon those are not even necessary!!!!!! The kid was def like 19 and siad wow ur almost 23 and youve never been in an accident.... my response was, yea i havent because Im a good driver. He then says yea ive been in like 8. WELL i can tell since you clearly cant even back out of a damn parking spot. UGH he made the whole plan and beach trip start off awful.

Ridiculous convo. with insurance comp.(who laughed at my name and at the position I was in for some apparent reaso) and cops (who were blatantly hitting on me and my friends the entire time), and all I want is my car back and all fixed. i have no idea what is going to happen or how soon. i have a lot of crap to take care of. SO no car at all for at least a week i suppose. I hope its fixable.



Finally got to the beach at like 2 or so, and had an amazing time with 2 of my fave lady's. Even got hit on by an adorable 16 yr old skater kid.

<3 hahah We took tons of pics and ate delicious gelatto and had long convo on the beach. It was def necessary esp after the morning we had.

All in all..... things are ridiculous. and i have no idea whats going on.... I have no idea how im getting to work tom or even the rest of the week. Or what is going to happen with my car. My life is so ridiculous sometimes and all I can do is laugh... maybe cry lol.

I move into my new place next Thur. and im so stressed out about everything. I hate how I wish he was here to help me :(
Ugh i hope every ones day was a bit better then mine.

xxoo

Had a pretty much awful day today at work... almost even had to quit. It makes it hard when you work with younger people that live for drama and your 23 and just want to live life as happily as possible.... but instead I some how got more hours. So now i have no- little life. :(

On a happier note... i logged into buzznet and all my friends are back!!! yesss. this made me so excited. i thought i lost you all. lol.

Also I was on the way home from work with my ipod on because my car stinks and the cd player broke and i was singing and this kid was skateboarding across and stops in the middle of traffic to wave hi and tell me i sang good while dancing. it was the BEST part of my day. so so cute. i wanted to just hug him. Its the little things like that, that make the day so much better for me.

Today I am tlaking things over about signing the contract for my house. I move in August 1, but I can start taking things over and painting as soon as I sign. I am so excited. I cant wait to paint. I looove it. This whole rent thing, is so ridiculous and expensive, and I dont know how it will all end but thats a part of life. You have to take risks and chances in order to grow and learn. Its gonna be so much fun living on my own. Dance parties all hours of the day. lol.
Anyways ill post again later. xxoo

So its been a little while since my last update.
As soon as I got home things got so crazy. Ive basically been catching up and workign a lot too. The most recent news is the house I was supposed to have with my 2 friends Jason and Marc didnt work out for me. The house is so cute coz its so old but the previous owners took such lousy care of it. They left it a mess nad not to mention reminants of drugs and they let all of their pets (numerous) live in the bedroom that woulda been mine. The house needs a lot of work, which was gona be taken care of but because I am such a germaphobe and a huge hypochondriac (which is mostly because of my weak immune system) I had to walk away from it all. Its a really sad story with the whole house. There was a little girl there whos parents are now in jail and b4 hand her parents had her living in this attic like room. I found her hannah montana posters and i almost cried. I think they should keep them up in memory! lol. BUT the boys are still gonna take the house so that makes me feel a bit better.....
On the other hannndd for me...... well I have been blessed in many ways. I was lucky enough to get some help, and come august 1st (just in time for my 23rd bday) will be living in my very own 3 bedroom house!!!I cant tell you how very excited I am. My room is abotu the same size as the one i have now, but im gona do it all different. and ill have my own computer room/ art studio. the other room im gona leave vacant in case i find an awesome roomie :)
The house is so adorable i love it. and i cannn nooottt wait to decorate it. its gona be amazing!
Now all i need is a new job! I CAN NOT work any sort of retail much longer. Its unbearable!
Other then that.... things have been okay. Well I hope you all have been doing well. xxoo

do you think i should get some little pet fishies>>???

As the time passes, I realize I only have a few more days here in las vegas. Im eager to see my friends back home, but thats about it. lol. Last night I went to see Metro Station, The Cab, The Maine,and danger radio at Jillians. It was so much fun, altho I went alone so I probably looked bored dancing alone. :)

Tonight we are going to see Love by Cirque du Soleil... I am so so stoked about it. It was pretty pricey. Then tom morning I am gonna try to get a greyhound and get to LA. If it all goes according to plan it should be amazing. Ive been waiting to get to CA for 22 years lol. If I go, I wont get home till about 230am. I think itd be worth it. Then Tuesday I fly home to Philly. This trip has been incredible.

Mom gave me a call the other day and she is moving out of the country in July. Which leaves me to figure out if I can some how make it on my own in Philly or if I have to move out here to Vegas. Its an incredibly hard decision to make and will affect me in ways I cant even begin to explain. My whole life is Philadelphia. I guess Im just really scared. But who wouldnt be? starting all over, and its not like Im a young kid anymore. I just dont know....

Im not letting that take over the few days I have left on vacation. xxoo

Today I walked to little asia from the apartment, which is about 15 mins or so. Nice little walk. I decided to treat myself to a nice little swedish massage. It was so relaxing and so amazing. I only got it for a half hour. I wish I could get one every week. I suggest every one get one every once in a while. def worth it. I came back home and sat outside by the pool for tan day #2. No one else was there which is always nice.

I came home and got a call from my mom. Basically a couple months ago she made a promise to me that shed spend one more year back home (in Philly) so I could figure out what I wanted where I wanted to live and how I was gonna do that. I was okay with that because it gave me time to think, plan, same money, and maybe find some one to roomate with.

Well today she told me she couldnt do it any longer. She doesnt want to re-new our lease back home and she wants to move back to her home (Panama) as soon as late July. Naturally I am a worryer and I stress about pretty much anything. I know its not a good thingand ive been trying to improve upon that, but this just so happened to rain on my vacation parade. I'm not sure what I want or what I'm going to do. I know if I need/want to I can move in with my dad here in Vegas. Im sure I could easily find a job and the weather is probably better then Phillys winters. Its just my whole life is there on hte east coast. My friends, my school, my work, the love of my life. Things have never been too easy so I know how to deal with difficult things if I have to, I just want to be some where I can call home.... Im not sure if Vegas with my dad is it. Im also not sure what other choice I have with such little time.

I guess im jsut scared of change. And well this would be a huge one. Whats your opinion? East coast/ West coast. Old habits/ new beginings. xxoo

Today got to go to the Madame Tussauds Wax Museum.Waited in the discount tickets line for about an hour. But it was so worth it because it wasentertainingly hilarious. So much fun. Took soo many pictures. Im glad we got to see thatt.Afterwards, we went walking down the strip to tons and tons of shops. Got to eat amazing gelatto. mmmm. Got strawbery, and vanilla :) Went on a small shopping spree at Urban Outfitters. Continued shopping a bit then came home and ate some dinner.

Tomorrow I plan on waking up a little earlier to head  to the pool to hopefully and finally get a tannnn :) Then I think I may walk down the street to get a massage. Possibly check out some of the little china shops.I think tomorrow night we are gonna try to see Love by Cirque du solei Well either tom. night or Wed night. We shall see.

Its kinda weird because I dont really miss home much. I jsut miss my friends. Im thinking every one was right, I should move out here. I duno its always just so hard to think about let alone do. well loves, ill touch base later. xxoo -annie

Today my dad and I set out for such an amazing adventure. We went to Red Rock Canyon to see/ climb mountains. It was absolutely incredible! I cant even explain, but I think its something every one should see and do. Its an all day affair. It has the BEST sights Ive seen recently. I climbed a few mountains. And unfortunately fell once. LOL. it was hilarious. Luckily I only got a few scrapes and bruises. It was such an amazing time. And quite tiring. I think we may go back again before I leave. Got some aweome pics that I'll post later....

Had a big dinner @ Fridays... and now Im sitting in the apartment with curlers in my hair. Im not sure what we are going to set out to do tom. but Im sure its gona be super.
hope everyone else is doing well. xxoo

Its been raining here in Vegas the past few days ive been here... which is weird coz my dad said it never does.... I musta brought it from back home on the east coast Philadelphia. I hope it clears up and gets hooottttt! :)

Today I slept in, ate a big breakfast and went out to adventure later. Went out on the strip for a while. Got some sweet tube socks from the M & M store So adorable! Later we went cosmic bowling. It was so much fun, altho I realized I am awffulll at bowling. I think tom. we might go to another flea market/ swap meet and maybe try and see a show, Hope to see LOVE cirque du solei. I cant believe its only been 3 days. I'll be here for another 9 days or so.

I absolutely LOVE seeing palm trees everywhere. It makes me so so happy. Altho I do miss seeing grass everywhere and my friends :( but this is such a greaqt exerience. I might end up moving out here anyways.

 Flying out here the other day I realized how amazing it is to be so  high and be looking down at the clouds. Its such an incredible feeling to see the world at a different perspective. It makes you think.

Well I will check in again soon. xxoo -annie

So I thought this was a perfect time to update/ start with this journal again... I flew into Las Vegas yesterday afternoon. It was so nice to see my dad again. We spent the day foodshopping and geting krispy kreme doughnuts... which were amazing! (they closed all of those on the east coast.) Anyways today we went to s swap meet, then a few shopping arenas. We also went to "The Attic" which is a thrift like store with stuff from the 70's! Frigin awesome. I bought a long paisley apronlike thing, that i plan on wearing like a dress. It'll be the start ofa new trend. I also got a sweet new key chain.

Later on we went to a buffet at the Palms.... sooo so good! I ate so much. Amazing cakes/ mini cupcakes and ice cream. I def plan on going there again b4 I go back home. Late tonight we went to go see the Prince impersiantor. It was hilarious, but he was actually really impressive and amazing! i Loveeed it! Now its like quarter to one here and back home its really quarter to 4. so weird with time difference.

I cant wait to do everything. so much to do. I wanna climb the mountain, go see Cirque du solei (LOVE with beatles) go to the revolution lounge, the wax museum, and prob a million more things. metro station is playing thurs. i might see if i can catch that too.....i love it here. I just wish it would warmen up so I can get my tan on. :)

Well I will check back in later..... xxoo

If I had things my way... it wouldn't have gone this bad, not so soon.
I would be some what less confused. Maybe, just maybe able to fall asleep with out wondering.
Wondering where you are, what you're doing, but more so how you are.
If I had things my way... I'd be (just a little more/ a lot more) excited about the future.
A little less concerend about the past, and more so the current problems.
(those problems were always a little more able to accept/ handle with you here.)
If I had things my way ... that time wouldn't have been the last time, I'd say I love you.
I would have let you know I needed you to be here with me. And hold you until I had to let go.

If I had things my way...  I wouldn't have to dream of seeing you, touching you, kissing you, feeling you...
It'd be real. (again)

If I had things my way... I wouldn't cry when I heard your name or saw your face.
I'd blush, and smile and swoon with love.

If I had things my way... we'd go on forever, happy together.

And, If I had things my way... I wouldn't be here, writing this, for you.


but here I am.
i'llneverstoplovingyou. always,anniexoxo